Just finished watching a BBC documentary on Pablo Picasso. I learned much about his upbringing, his friends, his women, his architecture and of course his paintings.  The part that intrigued me however was the way he lived his life.  I think his truest artistry was the ease in which he took himself, all of himself, even the bad parts, which he didn't see as bad for what is morality anyway.  In art he took these imaginary boundaries that people put up and smashed them using the world as a canvas. He did the same thing in life, smashing right and wrong, smashing up and down, leaving life as an invigorating question.  I think what he was trying to say was don't live your life in this cell, in this beaten path the world puts over your eyes, truly see things for the first time without prejudice or distinction, this is what it's all about...or I could be wrong, I am an expert in no thing.

I told my aunt yesterday that I don't think I would ever get married and she looked at me like i had shaken her entire world. "what?" she said, "well why not?" and I told her I don't think I could ever find anyone I trusted that much, we're all looking out for the self at the end of the day and eventually she would betray me.  My aunt looked at me and said "don't say that, you have to get married, you just haven't met that person yet." The thing that struck me most her response wasn't her words but her actions, she was truly in utterly disbelief that someone could not want to get married, she just looked at me like "that's what people do, are you not a person?" This is what she's been told, in one way or another, since she was a girl so my proposal to her was completely alien and she didnt understand.

But not just marriage, anything, I mean there are very few things that we truly "have" to do we just feel like we have to, pressure from our family, friends, society to live a certain way.  But it's not their fault, this is what they've been taught.