Journal Entry

So I was thinking, about chemistry, about space, universes, galaxies, physics, the everyday, buddhism, our bodies just everything and at this very moment I believe in the thatness.  The thatness is everything but everything as one, it may take differnet forms or shapes or characteristics but in the end it is the thatness.  From what I understand in chemistry, the thatness is carbon, in physics the thatness in energy, but in the ultimate (which in itself is a paradox), who knows what it is, it can only be felt, not percieved by a tiny human mind. Me and others alike look for the answers, but I believe this to be impossible, its too big, we can ony be, be in it, be apart of it, just be, and i think thats all there is, no begining no end, just being, as we have always been.  The life of a human is soo great and soo small at the same time, but it is an absolute miracle, both in the advantages we have as being human (knowing we are concious, being able to go for our dreams etc.) but also on the scale of who we are and how we are alive, everything about us is an absolute miracle. Picasso once said "It's a miracle we don't dissolve in our bathtubs" I don't know how scientificaly true this is but I think what he's trying to say is that there is soo much about us that we don't know yet it is still happening, and miracles happen everyday, as a matter of fact things we consider miracles are the norm if we could only realize this, but because of culture, society, and tradition, we forget our miraculous selves and instead become a base egocentric creature living out a small potential of what we really are which is everything.  We forget our true mothers and fathers, brothers and sisters the stars.  I don't mean to sound like a hippie or a loon but I believe these things to be true if nothing more than the fact I feel it, and I think about it so therefore it must be possible, it cannot exist outside of the thatness.

To be honest I don't know what any of this means or if its even true. I may scrape this whole theory tomorrow but I think the fundamentals of it are true until proven otherwise.